Okay, so my pregnancy countdown ticker says 17 weeks til this little guy is due to arrive. 17 WEEKS!! Im kinda freaking out here. Thats like right around the corner!!
I have no fears that I will be able to handle parenthood okay. But I am deathly afraid of labor, giving birth, pain, bleeding, IV's....things of that nature. I just wish I could wake up one morning and have him magically appear. Yeah right...
Just had to let that out. Im thinking of starting a pregnancy blog, but I suck at this one, so Im pretty sure I will suck at that one too. Hmmm.....besides, he hates when I have the laptop on my lap, so he probably wont stand for more blogging.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Yes, I am aware
I am very aware that I am a terrible blogger. I have all these ideas of what to write/blog about, and then end up being a huge flaker!! Maybe I will get some motivation soon. Right now, I just want a nap.
For the record.....I feel pretty good, and Im definitely eating for two!!
Be back later
Yep, I say that now, and later can mean tomorrow, or two months from now! Dont hold your breath.
For the record.....I feel pretty good, and Im definitely eating for two!!
Be back later
Yep, I say that now, and later can mean tomorrow, or two months from now! Dont hold your breath.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Im coming out.....
Okay, its been too long since I posted, and I was supposed to come out with this like a week ago....but here it is....
Yep, there is a baby in my belly.......Today, we are 12 weeks pregnant. I wanted to hit this "safe" milestone before I told people. Not that we are ever "safe" but it makes me feel good that we made it this far.
I have to go eat now.....
Yep, there is a baby in my belly.......Today, we are 12 weeks pregnant. I wanted to hit this "safe" milestone before I told people. Not that we are ever "safe" but it makes me feel good that we made it this far.
I have to go eat now.....
Monday, September 29, 2008
Secrets.....
Two more days, and I can reveal my secret (to those that dont know it yet) It will feel good to get it out, and even better that my target date arrived. This makes no sense to many, but it will in two days.
So DH asked tonight if I would mind moving to Irvine. I wouldnt. Its not that far away from here. I mean, I would hate being further away from my family, but its only 1 1/2 hours away. I think we can all survive that. If it means happiness for me and DH and our future family, Im all for it. Besides, I will be near the big mall!! Everyone wants to visit the big mall, all the more reason to come see me, right. Im not worried about it yet, but i think it made him feel better that I was receptive to change. Hey change happens.....it could be worse, we could be moving to Arizona (which is where his parent company is based out of)
I did a not nice thing Sunday, but I feel justified. I watched a lady pull into a parking spot, throw her cigarette butt out the window, then empty her ashtray onto the floor next to her car. She walked into the grocery store. I noticed she left her windows cracked, so I scooped all the butts up and threw them back into her car. Is that rude?? If it is, so is littering, so get over it. There was a trashcan on the way into the store, and thats what its for. Rude people suck. Im mean.....
More to come in two days......
So DH asked tonight if I would mind moving to Irvine. I wouldnt. Its not that far away from here. I mean, I would hate being further away from my family, but its only 1 1/2 hours away. I think we can all survive that. If it means happiness for me and DH and our future family, Im all for it. Besides, I will be near the big mall!! Everyone wants to visit the big mall, all the more reason to come see me, right. Im not worried about it yet, but i think it made him feel better that I was receptive to change. Hey change happens.....it could be worse, we could be moving to Arizona (which is where his parent company is based out of)
I did a not nice thing Sunday, but I feel justified. I watched a lady pull into a parking spot, throw her cigarette butt out the window, then empty her ashtray onto the floor next to her car. She walked into the grocery store. I noticed she left her windows cracked, so I scooped all the butts up and threw them back into her car. Is that rude?? If it is, so is littering, so get over it. There was a trashcan on the way into the store, and thats what its for. Rude people suck. Im mean.....
More to come in two days......
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Worries, worries, worries.
Neither DH or I have been sleeping well. Its too hot, too cold, to noisy, too quiet. There is never a reason to my sleeping insanity, it just is. I dont know what DH's problem is, until I asked this morning. He is unhappy at his job, he wants to put out his resume and start looking for a new one. WHAT?? Am I overreacting to think this is a terrible time for this to happen?? I mean, I hate that he isnt happy at work, and I do want for him to be at a job that fulfills him, but OMG!! One more thing for me to stress about, and thats all that consumes me right now. Should I start working more hours, and dogpile some more into my savings?? Im sicker than a dog 20 out of 24 hours in a day. I cant work any more than I already am. Or can I? Maybe I should just start sucking it up and do more. I cant stand by and have financial worries on top of the everyday worries that already consume me. UGH!! I know I am overreacting a bit, because this happened last time he wasnt happy at his job, and we made it over this hump with flying colors. He was so supportive when I wanted to quit my job, and I want to be the same for him. But the roles are drastically different here. He is the moneymaker, the provider, the one with benefits. Too many things to worry about here. But he seems so very jolly during the day. Maybe its just a phase?? The unknown scares me with a passion.
I just want to be happy. I want my hubby to be happy. I want us to be a happy, secure family, and in the back of my head I fear I wont be able to be that SAHM mom that I have wanted all my life. Worries, worries, worries......
I just want to be happy. I want my hubby to be happy. I want us to be a happy, secure family, and in the back of my head I fear I wont be able to be that SAHM mom that I have wanted all my life. Worries, worries, worries......
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Everything makes me sick.....
and I dont mean physically sick. I just hate how some people in this world just make me sick. I cant just look at certain people, and I feel sick inside. If only people could see what I see, they would understand.
My work had a party yesterday. It was the 12th anniversary of our opening. Each year the party gets a bit more contrived. Its just sad that you can be lacking in basic needs (backed up sink, lightbulbs burnt out, toilet seat that doesnt stay on the toilet) or you can have staff that lack motivation due to lack of appreciation at this place of business. That is easy stuff to take care of. Just a little time and effort on the part of administrative figures. But while they cant take the time to fix the existing problems, they throw themselves 150% into making this party a success. Who cares that your staff is cursing the ground you walk on, and most of us pee on the floor because the light bulb in the staff bathroom is burnt out because you cant take 5 minutes out of your day to replace it. Just make sure this party to please the clients is a huge success. Mostly because you need those donations to keep the place running. Whats the use of having the place running, if you are slowly but surely chasing away all your quality staff?? Just appreciate what you have is all I am saying....
so this party starts at 4:30. All the parents come pick up their kids early, the kids are so excited for a party, there are games, prizes, food, cake, what more can you ask for?? Not much unless you are the last kid that gets picked up for the party. Not much if you are that sad, dejected child that gets to watch the party through the fence, all the while waiting for your mom to come. Party ends at 6:30, mother walks in to pick him up at.....6:30. I have a longstanding history with said mother, so this party is just the tip of the iceberg. I curse the ground she walks on.....
Im tired now....what else is new. I need something good to renew my faith in people, because right now, I am dejected about the state of the world. There are no more manners, common sense, goodness, genuineness, all those things that make people happy. Just once, someone do something that isnt based upon selfish reasoning. Is that too much to ask?
Til next time......
My work had a party yesterday. It was the 12th anniversary of our opening. Each year the party gets a bit more contrived. Its just sad that you can be lacking in basic needs (backed up sink, lightbulbs burnt out, toilet seat that doesnt stay on the toilet) or you can have staff that lack motivation due to lack of appreciation at this place of business. That is easy stuff to take care of. Just a little time and effort on the part of administrative figures. But while they cant take the time to fix the existing problems, they throw themselves 150% into making this party a success. Who cares that your staff is cursing the ground you walk on, and most of us pee on the floor because the light bulb in the staff bathroom is burnt out because you cant take 5 minutes out of your day to replace it. Just make sure this party to please the clients is a huge success. Mostly because you need those donations to keep the place running. Whats the use of having the place running, if you are slowly but surely chasing away all your quality staff?? Just appreciate what you have is all I am saying....
so this party starts at 4:30. All the parents come pick up their kids early, the kids are so excited for a party, there are games, prizes, food, cake, what more can you ask for?? Not much unless you are the last kid that gets picked up for the party. Not much if you are that sad, dejected child that gets to watch the party through the fence, all the while waiting for your mom to come. Party ends at 6:30, mother walks in to pick him up at.....6:30. I have a longstanding history with said mother, so this party is just the tip of the iceberg. I curse the ground she walks on.....
Im tired now....what else is new. I need something good to renew my faith in people, because right now, I am dejected about the state of the world. There are no more manners, common sense, goodness, genuineness, all those things that make people happy. Just once, someone do something that isnt based upon selfish reasoning. Is that too much to ask?
Til next time......
Friday, September 5, 2008
Lacking motivation or just LAZY??
Man, I have never been known to be this lazy. Dont get me wrong, I am so LAZY....I will sleep til noon if given the chance, many days I dont get out of my PJ's til about an hour before Mike comes home from work, I only work 3 days a week, but I still complain about how tired I am (sssshhhhhh......we know why, but shhhh)
It doesnt help matters that my computers have been struck by a virus, and Mike has been working feverishly for a week to clean them all up. So I have had limited time online, and when I get on, I check for friend updates, and have been terrible about returning correspondence. Yep...Lazy. After about 15 or so minutes of reading, I need a nap.
I know its bad, because on a normal post-race ride home, Im sadder than sad. I hate to leave the track. I drag my feet, I make my hubby and friends roam through souvenier trailers, even if Im not buying anything. I stand in the bleachers and take random pictures, just to absorb the moment for just a second more. After this past race, I couldnt get home fast enough. I actually wanted to leave halfway through (mostly because Jeff Gordon did so crappy but also because I wanted to take a nap) I think I need some nap therapy....
So I have to go to bed now. Im sorry for those of you that come by and want something interesting to read, or the occasional amusing post. I just dont have it in me right now. I hope to have it back soon.....very soon. Im tired of me already...
and for the record. I look at my traffic feed, and I recognize most of you. But there is one visitor that is driving me nuts, mainly because I dont know who you are, and I wonder why you visit my blog. You should say hi.....
:) :) :)
It doesnt help matters that my computers have been struck by a virus, and Mike has been working feverishly for a week to clean them all up. So I have had limited time online, and when I get on, I check for friend updates, and have been terrible about returning correspondence. Yep...Lazy. After about 15 or so minutes of reading, I need a nap.
I know its bad, because on a normal post-race ride home, Im sadder than sad. I hate to leave the track. I drag my feet, I make my hubby and friends roam through souvenier trailers, even if Im not buying anything. I stand in the bleachers and take random pictures, just to absorb the moment for just a second more. After this past race, I couldnt get home fast enough. I actually wanted to leave halfway through (mostly because Jeff Gordon did so crappy but also because I wanted to take a nap) I think I need some nap therapy....
So I have to go to bed now. Im sorry for those of you that come by and want something interesting to read, or the occasional amusing post. I just dont have it in me right now. I hope to have it back soon.....very soon. Im tired of me already...
and for the record. I look at my traffic feed, and I recognize most of you. But there is one visitor that is driving me nuts, mainly because I dont know who you are, and I wonder why you visit my blog. You should say hi.....
:) :) :)
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